It's been two weeks since the earthquake. Ground zero is still cut off from the rest of the world and while parts of the country that are badly affected are continuing to reel under its influence, the rest of the country moved on. It's Christmas season and retail outlets cannot afford not operating, despite aftershocks continuing to send tremors and scares into our daily lives. People working in high rise buildings tell themselves everyday as they leave their homes that everything will will be alright today, although they know deep in their hearts that things can never be the same again..
It was a few minutes past 12 am. Remnants of the weekend mood were still lingering in my nocturnal insomniac alter ego. I was telling myself it's time to sleep as I struggled to shut down that one-last-video I was watching of the predicted Trump doomsday scenarios. Doomsday in a faraway land was frightening enough, when the ground below my feet began to rumble. At first I brushed it off, like a seasoned Wellingtonian, who's experienced multiple tremors in the past few years, anticipating it to stop after a few minutes, waiting to check geonet to find out the magnitude of the-one-that-I-felt, to enquire colleagues and friends the next day almost braggingly if they had felt the x.y magnitude quake from last night. But this was different. The rumbling gradually turned into a roll and the the world around me rolled with it. I remember, it took me a good 15 seconds to realise what was happening and to practise what's preached in NZ since kindergarten, in case of a quake - DROP, COVER, HOLD. After about 40 - 45 seconds, I yelled out for my flatmate to make sure he got cover too. And then darkness fell upon the world - literally - the lights went out. My wardrobe doors were moving, my suitcase fell over and as I was hoping that the roof above my head stays put just this one night, the rumbling went away. It lasted a full 2 minutes - it felt like 20 in my head.
I wasn't sure how one should react to a major disaster. I wasn't sure if I should be worried for the world or glad for my life. I always thought I would react to disasters with a much calmer demeanour, but I was trembling. I was convinced that there would be a tsunami, until I learned that the epicentre was somewhere far south from where I live and my fears were allayed. I got the emergency light out, I was still trembling. A quick check if all neighbours were fine, whilst trembling. I texted my friends and family to let them know I'm safe. The aftershocks kept knocking my suitcase down, so I wedged it behind my door and used a door stopper to prevent it from falling. The mood was quite unnerving. Two hours had passed since the earthquake and I was just about to get a wee wink, when I heard my flatmate call out to me that a Tsunami warning had been issued and Wellington is in the list.
I live in a low lying area of the Wellington region, called Hutt Valley. The Hutt river is the main artery that runs through the length of the city. And right underneath that lies a major fault, ready to cause a massive tremor whenever it pleases. That wasn't my concern. The Tsunami. I was technically in the Orange Zone - i.e. there is no immediate threat to my home. But my paranoia kicked in big time and I left the house 5 minutes after the warning was issued with just my keys, wallet and passport (I readied an emergency bag after the incident). We 'fled' a bit further inland, to where we work. We intently listened to the car's radio, that was tuned to the emergency station. The message was clear, 'go to higher ground'. I knew the night was going to be a long one but the wind and the aftershocks rocked me to sleep. My eyes were drooping heavily and I was nodding constantly until the Tsunami sirens got activated.
If you ever heard a Tsunami siren, you would know the air around you would immediately thicken with tension. Suddenly, my heart was in my mouth. I thought it was over, and the drama was only beginning to unravel. As we moved to much higher ground, we sensed the panic among the motorists trying to calmly queue their way through roundabouts at 3am in the morning. For most of them, it was the first time they have seen the world in that time of the hour. The almost super moon was adorned with a halo in the night sky, trying to suffuse a chilling calm into the world. And then just as it started, it all ended, suddenly, with no warning. The tsunami warning was called off and we headed home.
After hardly two hours of proper sleep I was awakened with a rude jolt. This time I shot straight under the table in one single smooth swoop (I later learned that while in bed it's safest to stay put and cover your head with a pillow). The aftershock didn't last long. Ever since, I have been struggling to go back to normalcy, that I treasured so much. Buildings in Wellington, which were initially assessed to be safe, got re-evaluated and marked unsafe and some demolished. My work was the only constant that gave me something to look forward to. Many may not understand why I should have been affected by an earthquake that wasn't even centred in my city. But the fact is, when something as major as that happens, you begin to question everything - all the choices and decisions you've made and you struggle to make sense of things and you just want to plain grieve. Wellington is incredible in that sense. The rebound of the people in this amazing city helped keep my depressed spirits up and very soon, I'm sure I'll get over the quake that will be written in NZ history and mine.